speaking for the both of me

i've waited, i've waited
way too fucking long
to come to some conclusion;
to finish our song
that was started way back
when my life was on track
when i had some direction,
some matter of fact,
but that's not how it happened
i tried to be happy
without you, but that's just too
impossible, you do
not wanna question this
how can you question it
is not unexpected to
throw a coniption fit
oh, pardon me,
you do not wanna see
how it really could be
if you'd just fucking see
the forest for the trees
and forget the damn bees
'cause this shit's for the birds
and just way too absurd
to give a second glance
beyond getting in your pants
i mean asking you to dance
i mean giving me a chance -
again - 'cause it should be a sin
that we're not what we could've been
like we were then
when we were just friends
'cause even that would be better
than what we have now
talking once every six months
if only you'd allow me
the privilege of your time
making me rewind
to how i felt when i laid eyes
on you for the first time -
i never thought
that i would get caught
in the middle of a plot
where you and i are not
together for better or
worse, through the weather,
the curses that come with each new
verse, you can bet it hurts

so when will it end,
this incessant "just friends"
when can i stop pretending
these feelings aren't in me...

okay, i take it all back
well, not the truth, just the words
that i spoke to give slack to the rope
i had hoped would give us the
chance we deserve, but...

give it up for sounding absurd.