for sale: one future, slighty used

this river's flowing showing
snowmen what their futures hold
the comfort knowing where
we're going leaves us all but bold
but in this dreary weary life
my future's clearly sold
to the highest bidder
but i'm anything but bitter
when these days i'm feeling fitter
happier to fold
my hand before i can
no longer strive for gold and
this life is nice
but twice the price
for half my future sold
i never told you
what i know to
be the only truth
but i'm believing
now what i'm seeing
now will soon make me choose...

[you]

your true feelings in [brackets]

you like the way i make you feel
[about yourself]
you like the idea of being in love
[or rather being loved]
you like to think of what we have
[or rather what we had]

you love me
[loving you]
you want me
[to want you]
you need me
[to say...]
anything to make you feel
[anything but pain]

you've given me everything you have
[everything but love]

the winner's right to lose

tonight will be
the night that we
begin to see
a future brighter than
the one we know
is just for show
so just let it go
this fucking town
moves way too fucking slow
and as we fly by
what used to make you cry
no need to be polite
just take my hand
and simply wave good-bye
to what you thought you knew
to once be true
we have this chance to prove
that everyone has the right to choose

and just as i've chosen you,
every winner has the right to lose

perfection through these eyes

this one's for you
and you know who you are
i know we could go far
and run faster than cars
oh, if you only knew
see, i've thought this thing through
all the way to the moon
and how it shines just for you
cheesy as hell
i never kiss and tell
but you make it so hard
for me to keep it all in
next to my shame and my sins
i just can't seem to let go
so just take all of me
my generosity and greed,
my wants and my needs,
my follow and my lead,
and when you've bled me dry
promise to leave my eyes
so as to see you become
what i've seen all along:

perfect.

failing you, my only regret

i don't regret much
'cause i've learned from my mistakes
and my past is what's made me
who i am today
but it's strange i can't explain
exactly how i feel
when you've been the focus of my thoughts
ever since you were first brought
to me from somewhere else
somewhere better, somewhere brighter,
some place where my heart is lighter
'cause ever since i failed you
it's been heavier than ever
now the only way to lift this weight
is to come right out and tell you straight:

you're the reason i still breathe
and live to see another day
all in hopes ammends are made
with you so i can hear you say
that you forgive me,
love me, miss me
it's then i'll hold you pressed against me
to save you from
those tears you've feared
would fall aginst another's ear
but as of now, and here on out
i'll be that ear to hear your shouts,
your laughs, your cries,
of joy, not of spite
your whispers, your sighs
as you gaze into my eyes
and see a future bold and bright
my heart is yours as well as i

tonight.

e.m.i.l.y.

emanate beauty through everyday life
make a scene, make a mess, make my knees weak
i lay in bed making wall shadows dance and
listening to everything that's ever made me love
you.

grace

i'm bored and you're boring.
so let's find a common ground
between the mattress and the sheets,
just for the fuck of it.

the reshaping of rain clouds

from the first time i saw her standing next to the fire place i knew that i'd have to prove i wasn't just another head case. "sure i've got some issues, but i bet you have 'em, too. and i know that there's gonna be some things we'll need to get through." what's said is done and what's done is said to be the reason we fall down and get right back up again.

anyway, back to the story: we left the bar at last call and held each other in the rain. it was then i knew i was bound to fall and sure enough, three weeks later, without a headline in the paper, i hit the ground hard, explaining why when she's around my knees get weak. i guess it's easier to fall than it is to fly, but when we kissed, i swear to god i felt like i could reach the sky and reshape all the clouds to remind her of me. 'cause these days it feels like i need all the help i can get. so i'm calling myself to make sure my phone still works. and when i get smart with the rep, she's the third in a day to call me a jerk, which i guess explains why my story ends with this scene:

she's reading how to tell him that you're just friends in a pop magazine after a late night with her single cousins and a guy who's everything but me. while my phone sits silent i'm wondering why i didn't see this coming from so far away. nothing gold will ever stay in the hands of someone who's been settling for copper eggs. so high you sat upon your thrown i built for you to rule my mind that when you stepped down, gave up your crown, it made me realize that no matter what i think i deserve or who's in whose league i just need to believe in everything you said i'd never be:

loved.

all of this / and just like that...

[part one]
this is ours. all of this: these moments and moments passed; moments to come and moments missed; all of this is ours. everything we had and lost or misplaced is still ours and i cherish those moments the most. everything we currently hold dear, held closest to our hearts, and everything we're bound to obtain, all of this is ours and will be ours forever. and for that, i thank you.

[part two]
and just like that...it's gone. the glances, the chances, our song. all because i couldn't accept that my failures wouldn't fail you. i tried so hard to hide from my past that i ended up hiding from the one person that understood it as just that...past. and now added to the list of faults that i never wanted you to endure, you sit atop as the one i regret most failing. so gone are we, but for this opportunity to build on the ashes a foundation based on honesty and integrity that crumbled so quickly before i realized that all i want is to be wherever you are and wherever you need me to be. and this being the first brick laid: i promise that whatever we are or whatever we become, the worst is over and you can have the best of me. i'd do anything to make you happy and everything to make you smile. i just wish i didn't have to lose you for me to fully understand how much it hurts when i make you sad.

and just like that...?

where tracks meet

here we are:
a slip and a tangle
away from being dangled
over the heads of
anyone who
never gives love a chance

there you are:
a quip and a smile
so far from denile
am i to think
i might be falling
and hard

here i am:
just a boy who
wants nothing but to
hold you and promise,
as long as you'll let me,
i'll never let you go

the way

the way she walks
the way she laughs
the way she knows
how to work what she has
the way she smells
the way she thinks
the way her touch
brings me to the brink
the way she kisses
like she already came
and the way she sighs
when i say her name
the way she dances
when she knows i'm watching
and the way she looks at me
when no one's around
the way she lives
and the way she loves
is everything i'd ever want
everything i've dreamed of

i didn't mean to wake you

i just called to say hey
so...hey, i guess it's just
i need to hear your voice sometimes

and when you said my name
that slightly annoyed tone
i smiled just knowing that
i get to make it up to you

so, i guess i'll let you go
off the phone, not from me
it'd take worlds more than a tone
for me to let you leave my mind

this has greatness written all over it

i think maybe
you should stop pretending
what we have
you've had before
you try so hard
to ignore the feeling
you get when you
look into these eyes

arms wide open
take me in the rain
i will make sure
you feel no more pain

you think maybe
this time will be different
what we have
you've been looking for
you try too hard
to make them happy
that there's nothing
left that makes you smile

arms wide open
take me from this rain
i will make sure
you've everything to gain

this has greatness
written all over it
what we have
won't ever fade